Sunday, May 3, 2009

how strong am i?

insyallah...ill be able to go through it. last night i had my ultimate contractions. oh sangat sakit. mmg betul kata doctor, senggugut is a pinch from it. selalu kalau tgh tido sakit senggugut, immediately terus tido meniarap or curl like a feotus nak hilangkan sakit. dah sebab perut besar macamana pulak nk buat mcm tu kan...adalah 2, 3 it came. n then woke up this morning once more. mulut ni terkumat kamit je selawat...dari perut , ke belakang, ke bawah , ke kaki...semua tegang...baby pun keras je. lepas sakit tu hilang kejap...baby gerak mcm biasa.
the pain...mmg teramat sangat...but knowing my baby's moving as usual for the greatest comfort of all. terus hilang rasa sakit n takut sebab tahu dia ok. biarlah mama sakit, yg penting anak mama ok.
bangun pagi, hubby dearie kata dia nk pg office kejap hand in his work to his boss. he came back an hour later. kesian dia..asked me nak mandi larat x bangun, klo x dia angkat...hahahhaa...u dont want to carry this whale ok..sambil mandi..huiii sakit perut dtg balik. but it wasnt as bad as last night..i sat in the tub on all fours untuk massage my back with the hot shower. sedap sikit rasa blkg...tapi hubby dearie gelakkan. sabor jelah...
siap2 terus pg columbia asia..
masa mula2 sampai annoyed jugak dgn semua org kat kaunter pendaftaran tu. sibuk nak tukar a new system pun bagilah priority to someone regular. punyelah lama nak tunggu doc panggil because they were so incompetent with the computers. nasib baik Dr. Aida mmg dah tunggu. so, dia terus panggil masuk eventhough system xmasukkan lagi my name.
dr tanya hows my contractions..then she said.oklah, timbang berat, check blood pressure n then kita check bawah ye..ha??????im not ready for that yet...
berat..as usual..xnaik sikit pon. blood pressure ok. then doc tekan perut nk rasa kedudukan baby..oooo sakit...
n then dr aida said.."ok...skrg u spread ur legs,saya check bawah..sorry ye sarah..sakit sikit je..sorry ye.." she kept on apologizing as she put some lubricant on her fingers. seriously, at that time, i was stunned. xtau nak ckp apa. n then she inserted her fingers..further in...sakitnye...she kept on apologizing again..awwwww sakit...
result : im havent dialated yet..but my cervix dah sangat soft n baby's head dah sangat ke bawah.
after that dr. aida asked me to pee in the cup. dia ckp everything ok..after peeing i started having bloody shows. maybe it was reactions to the test she did earlier but darah makin banyak keluar. dr aida said its up to me if i want to be admitted. my contractions still kuat my not that regular. she said if i want to speed up things she can induce labour on me anytime. knowing its only a matter of time. she said , shes confident it'll be in 1 or 2 days. hmmm...i dont think i want to be induced. let it come naturally. ill be fine. mmg sangat xsabar but xpe..ill wait. dr aida said i am a really strong person. wpon kecik...nak jugak tahan sakit contractions lama2. she said if it was her..dah lama dah dia induce, xtahan nk balik rumah tapi xbersalin2 lagi...mmmm..
ill wait till i cant stand the pain anymore or till my water breaks..ill be fine. i know im strong enough as long as my baby is. i know u are baby...
i cant wait to be with you...but let me experience everything naturally ok sayang...
pray for me people...

ps : masa kt hospital tadi ada 2 org tunggu nk jumpa doc. they had the face mask on. god...adakah?eiii takut...me n hubby dearie asyik tutup mulut je paranoid k

love
mama and papa

5 comments:

iReNe said...

u r strong Sarah... 1-2 more days? wow! best wishes k... cant wait 2 c ur lil junior :) wish baby all the best too!

senioritasara said...

irene : thanks a lot. im praying i am and will be...thanks again

syaima' said...

omg!!auww sakett.
hihi gudluck kak.
hopefully semuanya ok!! n ur the strongest pun among us.
nnti kalau bersalin suruh abg ashrul sms!!

Shmea said...

ouch! your experience made me shudder. haihh. hope everything goes well with u guys. xoxo.

senioritasara said...

syemak : of course la sms...dun worry...
shmea : thanks a lot...i hope so too

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