Monday, April 20, 2009

emotional breakdown!

i woke up feeling refreshed..bestnye tido last night after a long day entertaining my guests. (love them all). suddenly my b**bs rasanye macam sore sangat. ouch. then ada stain yg dah keras on my shirt. owh colustrum dah kuar. tapi sakit k smpai skrg ni. mlm nnti nak try tuam with hot towel. huuu. terus xde mood nak bangun. nak tido balik. then hubby dearie tgh sibuk sapu ubat kt perut...( haih...ni lagi satu, tiba2 yesterday kuar ruam2 pulak kt perut. sangatlah gatal. i think coz yesterday panas kan orang ramai kt rumah. air cond full blast pon berpeluh2 ) tiba2 dia nampak ada 2 line stretch mark kt bahagian bawah my tummy. uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........bertambah stress. everyday sapu modernmum punye stretch mark cream. baru last week pg check up doctor kata cakap "cantik perut, xde tanda2 pun". ni akibatnya kembang semangkuk dlm hati kan. haduh...sakit hati....benci!lepas ni im sooo buying bio oil. klo xberkesan im gonna sue that company. haihlah baby rafiq..eventhough perut mama berstretch mark...i still love you.
walaupun perut mama ni dah tegang sangat dah. kdg2 tu u love to stretch ur feet smpai naik perut mama. xnak pulak tu dia bengkokkan balik. macam nak koyak kulit mama ni. kak b ckp, perut dah tegang sangat ni mcm sangat dekat je.hmmm me think so too.
just now baby suzan advised me to go for check ups sekerap mungkin. apparently her sister's fren just lost a baby 2 days before her due date. shes having severe post natal depression right now. i totally understand. especially if its our first baby. how can we not be depressed. i know i would.
hmmm...back to routine now. cooking dinner pulak. c yah

love
mama and papa

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