last call

last call for makan2 aidilfitri...

sorry guys...this years open house xsempat nak buat..
yg tak sengaja dtg makan2 tu thanks.
the rest ... aidiladha ok fellas ?


so yesterday

sampai 3 rumah

since noon sampai tgh malam

nak buat mcmana...

the first 2 houses were hubby dearie's frens from Halliburton..
sorry Bahar n Shue...xsempat tangkap pics at ur place...
kebuluran sbb xmakan lunch heeeeeeeee
the second house baru berpose2 ehem..
all of our kids mmg hyper bermain..even baby Rafiq sibok mau join..
Rafiq tukang sorak tgk org main..
mmg happening la dgn suara all these kids .. berlari2 lagi...fuuuhhh..
a few more months it'll be our turn mengejar si Rafiq berlari
kenyangnye perut makan macam2..
soto, nasi dagang, nasi impit, kuih lapis, roti jala, nasi tomato...
ehhh banyak la lagi
kitorang sampai rasa nak tertido rumah org tu...penat sgt..
although the kids mcm kena sugar rush...siap main2 pasir kat luar heeee
nasib baik ada 4 hr gap dgn the last house


and then

the last house tu mmg for or our Shell fwens..
of course they are all still single people..
so mcm2 activity...makan, nyanyi lagu raya, sheisya (betul ke eja), main bunga api n mercun yg besar 2 tuh...
makanan sgt banyak
laksa sarawak, mihun sup, nasi lemak, nasi impit, rendang, sago manis, carrot cake, brownies...byk lagi ok xingat dah...
hebat betul...
yg masak tu all guys plak tuh.
n almost all of our frens dtg...its a happy gathering plus nak kutip donations for anak yatim...
so ramai la dtg..n we all managed to kumpul banyak jugak
Alhamdulillah rezeki mereka


thank God Rafiq cool je
lepak dgn everyone..
lots of things were going on kot dia xsempat nak meragam
wpon xde babies and kids kt sini tapi seronokla dia semua org layan dia heee
dah nak balik tu baru ek ek sikit2 sebab dah sleepy
but he enjoys tgk org main bunga api and the huge fireworks..
xpernah tgk kot...
nasib baik dia tak terkejut n nangis
i risau jugak..
asked hubby dearie to stand a bit further away
takut masuk mata or anything..

seronok melepak dgn everyone mcm ni
makes us feel better being in Miri
so far...with these wonderful people around they make Miri less boring
lagi2 nowadays dah kenal mommies macam Hazam, Sue
makin seronok...ada je activity...
bila lagi mau lepak2 memenatkan diri jaga anak2 while husbands golfing?

so anyway...
tummy sgt full

here are the pics...

mama....im sleepy

hi geng...ala....i cant walk yet....watch u guys jelah

si tonet nk tgk org main...

ala....cian nisa...xcheck pon pics...nnti kita snap yg lain ya.ibu dgn ayah dia kemain comel lg tuh

sweet as always...danish...tgk sini...

sabar2...semua pun dpt turn

mama..rafiq hot stuff ngaaaahahah

xmo tgk mama dah

empunye open house...

ko mmg gedik ok!!

nangis papa amik from uncle thomas...sbb uncle thomas sedap..cushion...

yummmyyy...sheisha strawberry...but jauhkan from rafiq takut asma nnti besar hehehe

mama.....bunga api!!!!

i crave female attention...who?me or daddy? ngahahaha

marah sbb mama xbg makan kuih lapis..ni baby...ada oil, telur...xleh

ehem ehem

sedap laksa sarawak

kangkang2 plak si kecik

ewah ewah & red flag

masuk je 5 bln dah gerak mcm askar
tau x mcmana?
dia crawl using his elbows n knees?
tp xdelah jauh sgt...
yg penting if i put something in front of him dia beriya bergerak sbb nk capai

n then sambil BF sambil raba2 my face
korek2 idung mama la..apadaaa
or else sambil capai kaki sendiri
pastu pukul2 mama dgn kaki tu...
amboi...syurga bkn bwh tapak kaki rafiq ye

pastu genggam my baju kuat2...so that if he falls asleep sambil BF i xleh tinggal dia
gerak sikit je buntang pastu tarik2 my bra...

budak kicik semakin lasak n bijak

he understands :

"splash ur feet in the water!!"..nanti he'll look at me n start splashing kuat2..(xtaulah if xsengaja or wat but then id like to think that he knows wat it means) he does it everytime

" siapa budak montel??????" nnti belum geletek dia dah gelak n buat muka gedik ihihihi

yg penting rafiq da lasak...

mama bila mlm terus flat habis

btw...i had my period once lepas habis nifas
and then until now xde pon period...
thats normal kan?
can i have unprotected sex?
any ideas?
sorry tanya benda mcm ni...but really....takut jugak

u think?

sharing is caring....

id really love bringing all my frens together...
its fun...
widen my friend base..
seronok tgk everyone i know bond with each other..
hence the gathering and photoshoot

although some might think..
xseronokla kan because they dont know each other nanti xtau nak ckp apa
but itll be fun...
the world will be a better place

semua pon happy2 kan..
u never know what ull find out.maybe a long lost relatives ke kan..
heeeee

macam zatty tanya pasal alia who happens to be my coursemate, who used to be her deskmate masa sekolah...well...nak bring them together, i search through jas's fb sebab dlm fb semua org xde heeee
so zatty jumpa alia and jas jumpa zatty...
fuuuhhh complicated jugak tu
tapi mmg seronok bila tgk everyone happy2 mcm tu

masa preggers pon best jugak..
i has the chance to introduce my fwen lisa and baby suzan to my classmate sue
look at them now...
they're even having mommy dates...

this is lovely...

y am i talking about this?
because recently i had a fren here yg xsuka i jumpa org lain
dia will constantly ask me out tapi bila i ajak dia jumpa everyone sekali ramai2 dia tak nak
but she makes dinner or lunch dates without inviting me
i dont understand
if dia bz i meet up with the rest of the gang without dia...nanti dia ignore me for a few days
its really sad coz we bump into each other most of the time..
and then, knowing me...i hate not talking to friends...
ill have to initiate every conversation
its sad...

well,
taknaklah cerita byk2
i dont want to hurt anyone else yg xde kena mengena..
honestly..i might seem cocky...but it saddens me to watch something like this moreover be in it.

macamlah bagus sgt kan tegur2 org mcm ni
maybe i pon ada perangai yg sgt buruk yg buatkan dia layan i mcm tu
xpelah...
to that friend...sorry ye if ive done soemthing to hurt u

huuu emo pulak sekejap...

anyway...


i hope this small gathering will bring most of the people present closer
esp my fwens yg malu2 nak join tu...ehehehehheehhee
chill babes...i pon xpernah jumpa lg most of my blogger fwens
malu jugak...kan zatty? i xde idung jugak...ehehhehee

so...marilah kita berkongsi2 kasih sayang persahabatan ehehehehehe

rafiq pon share bath tub dgn mama n papa
heeeeeeeee ( xde kena mengena )

halo!

im coming back on the 27th...thats not cool...
im gonna miss her


i looooooooveeeeeeeeee BEYONCE

rinie....tolong tangkap pics banyak2 if u jadi pg...

oh so jelous..

sayang still on duty on the 25th...
xpelah..next time..if there ever will be..

huarrrggghhhh

5 months old rafiq...

im so proud of u sayang
dah besar dah anak mama...
baik, bijak, aktif, cerdik...encem lagi hehehee
tak salah kot bangga dgn anak sendiri
dia naughty pon anak kita jugak heeeeeee

nways..
rasa sedih pulak tgk rafiq besar dgn sangat cepat..
rasa mcm nak simpan dia jadi baby forever..
but im so happy that i can watch u grow right in front of my own eyes

all through his ways to 5 months he can already :

* start showings signs hes about to crawl...doing2 ala kuda..hahahaha
common sayang...come to mama....1 step, 2 step...
tapi yg lawaknye...dia gerak kebelakang...is that normal?hahhaaa

seee....dah nak step...common sayang

* he enjoys peek a boo even more...tingginya angkat kepala bila tau mama nyorok...and he'll scream happily when he sees me...so sgt susah nak khusyuk time solat..bila bgn from sujud...the gelak2 suka..ingat mama main peek a boo... tgkla ni....kemain lg tinggi lagi kepala tu bgn pagi2 xboleh dah org lain nak nyorok.nampak aja..


* he leans his body forward when i open my arms to take him..

* bab kunyah2 nak makan tu...adeh makin menjadi2 sejak masuk 4 bulan..sabar ye sayang....ur already 5 months..sebulan je lg ok sayang..yummy ye...cian dia...


* he can sit properly now. but then since takut his spine nnti sakit ke kan...so we all bg dia duduk kejap2 je... wonder should i buy a walker or not?
haih.....dah boleh duduk...kejapnyeeee tidaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkk

adala a few times letak dia dlm high chair...kemain lagi.perasan la tu dah big boy...pastu kuarkan balik...hehhehee

* he loves his toys now...dia tau dah mcmana nak main...but still at times masuk mulut jugak

* he bathes with me now. hes outgrown his tub so mandi dlm tub mama....i had to buy him a bath seat....comeeeelll...no to mention save time..mandi sesama.ngeeee..xpe rafiq still small baby kan..

* suka main kain still. susah betul nk lipat kain lagi2 bila dia dh bergerak sana sini..baru lipat dia sepahkan balik...haih...nasib baikla mama ni xde keje lain mengadap rafiq je..

* tido merata2 if dah penat..main2 tido terkangkang dlm mainan...lawak betul n so cute. amik power nap, pastu bgn sambung blk main...

ada lg rasanya tp lupa plak...cant wait for more changes throughout this 5th month


serious...xsangka sekejap ni dia besar
i can still feel the painful contractions..

yesterday while packing away his old clothes n belongings..rasa mcm sayu plak..
dulu mama dukung rafiq kecik sgt...
skrg mama pon dah xlarat nak dukung dah...

sayang mama...
jadi anak yg berguna ye sayang

AMIN..

p/s : to Rayna..semoga cepat sembuh...mama selalu doakan k

planssss

before that...
sorry if my previous post has created quite a stir..
it was from my own experience.
xpayah lah sesapa terasa ok
i know most of my frens are very loving parents..its all written clearly in ur words..
i admire all of u..esp working mommies..kerja lagi, jaga anak lagi...suami lagi..
its hard..
u guys are so HEBAT!

well...back to the main point
yesterday while smsing with mommy anita
we came up with a brilliant business idea...
masih perlu dirahsiakan because ideas pun belum finalize..
but i love it!!!!
thanks dear for the splendid suggestion
lets make this happen...

me and rinie mmg bersemangat nak bukak something like kizsport but we know...that need a huge capital and also responsibility..
plus, i wont be around most of the time...
as u said...lets kumpul money first and buat research
sabar ye rinie...ashrul said, tunggu KL ada minyak hahahahaha

so...

Insya Allah,
this new idea will be a starter...

cant wait...

mommy nita....

LETS.....

cant wait to meet u!

tanya sama pokok

are u frustrated with ur own behaviour?

met some frens yesterday
while we were bz dining, this girl started crying....i think she was uncomfortable
she was only 7 months old..
the mother said "sabarla...ibu tgh makan..." but then she totally ignored the baby's cries and continued talking about her trip to *****..excited kot.i dont blame her...
but then the father started gripping her arms so hard and kept saying " **** ni..tak habis2 buat perangai .. senyap boleh tak "

result ? of course the girl's cries became louder..and this time..she couldnt be stopped
the mother turned to us n said " **** ni memang...baran sikit...tension betol..nangis je tak sudah2...sakit ati kdg2!"

what should i do as her parent's friends?

well...if i try to console her...nnti dia kata nak mengajar dia pulak...

so i just smiled and hugged rafiq so hard...because i cant help it...i wanted to cry too...

believe me...ive been through the phase where i felt so tired, so out of breath, i just wanted to be with my own self for a while...but I couldnt..because of Rafiq..

the first few weeks after Rafiq's birth was sooo hard...at times i became so frustrated with myself..why oh why do u have to cry all the time?
did i do anything wrong? are you cold? are u hot? or do u just hate me?
im soooo thankful that hubby dearie was sooo patient with me and Rafiq..
he was the one who sung him to sleep, who learned how to bath him, pump my BM, feed him and change him..

but then...when i finally realized..he needs me, my attention, my love....i began to enjoy every moment.
and Rafiq changed...he did...he became an easy child
provided i always remind him every time i bathe him or massage him that he is a good boy, he is a clever boy and he will always make me proud..


sure at time he has been difficult esp when hes sleepy and uncomfortable..
who isnt right?
but i know i have the power to soothe him
even papa's strong arms are quite less usefull nowadays..



see...doesnt his cries make u want to cry too???not youlah...me...hehehehhe



ive seen many occasions where mommies or daddies scold their presious ones ( even worse babies ) for their lost of patience...
although these small beings are immature in ranges of areas but they can sense our emotions..
dont bother hiding them...our body language says it all...
the closest example is my aunt..she scolds and hits her kids from when they were born. well its not exactly torture but...pinching their arms so hard or pulling their ears..whenever the boys want something. they're very rebellious boys now..they'll scream and embarress their parents in public..

i know i dont have to power to control every behaviour..
but im trying my best..
i know i can..
and it all starts with us...me and hubby dearie..

we vow to :

* always tell rafiq the good and bad of everything..eventhough he still doesnt understand a thing
* always keep him away from bad influences...whether its talking about other ppl, poor hygiene, horrifying tv shows ( eg wrestling ) or even small fights between us , luckily thank god..every misunderstanding end with laughter..heheheh
* always encourage him to try lots of new stuff...even if it means...mama has to clean the house every hour..
* always let him know that we are sooo proud of him and that we love him so much...

i know we are far from perfect but we want to learn. who wants a difficult child kan?
i pray every day that Rafiq will be much easier as he grows..
but though he turns out otherwise, we'll pray so hard that he will change..
and love is all we will be giving him

so the next time...you or ME...decided to loose it..

ask urself..

is it totally necessary ?

afterall...

they are what we taught them to be !

ps : ini bukan entry perasan ye...i cant shake the image out of my head so i have to blog about it...

awwwwwwwwwww

end of this week rafiq dah 5 bulan...cepatnyeeee
rasa mcm kejap je...
sebulan lagi dah makan solid food..mesti mama nangis...
through these 4 months he's been with me...
ive had the blessing to watch every single change in you
sorry ye syg sbb sometimes miss those moments..
i promise ill record them if i can hehe

rafiqs a good boy
sure at times he can be cranky..
esp kalau mengantuk n rindu mommies b*****s
but the baby who was in his early days so attached to papa now prefers to have mama around
only mama has the power to soothe him
tapi klo dia dah ngantuk sgt pon dia nangis jugak
but can tell by the sound of his cries what he wants..
but every mother has their own instincts..so mesti dia tau

sorry ye syg, sbb masa rafiq mula2 lahir mama selalu bad mood
mama penat...mama xbiasa lg xcukup tido n kena fokus jaga satu benda all the time
but now...mama dah faham..n i enjoy u being dependant on me..
u know when u mengada2 nak my attention ... ill always cheer u up
eventhough i know u scream bcoz u want me to play with u
bak kata papa....
"asal nampak mama je gelak2..klo nak gelak dgn papa mesti kena ada mama"

btw...this is his latest move..
well..xdelah latest..dah 2mgu..but gewam tgk montot tu goyang..
esp klo ada lagu boom boom pow!!!

tgkla montot dia
sgt cute...
he's still afraid to move his arms thou
pasni penat la mama mengejar budak dah merangkak...

im so proud of u sayang...

ill always be ur cheerleader!!!
go rafiq go!!!

btw, nak jugak add...
the other day kuar berdua dgn rafiq (syg, i merajuk jugak u bz)
beli brg dapur n makan secret recipe..
aunty amie joined masa kt SR
but im sooo proud sbb rafiq ok...although my heart nearly dropped a few times coz he loves to stretch his arms so that he can touch everything
nasib baik brg2 kaca tu xjatuh syg....

but happy...papa xnak ikut pon xpe kan...
rafiq jd boyfren mama
till then...toodles...


baring2 kat secret recipe...
jgn kacau mama nk makan ye




papa...we survived with just the two of us...
hehehehehhehehe....

motif???

cari pasal dgn my mama eh...come la wrestling wit me 1st

adake kata aku xcompetent jaga anak????
well not literally but still ...
yes its my fault kuar xbwk his diapers
dah nak kuar less than 10 mins..office tu blkg rumah je..
how should i know tiba2 dia nak poo
pampers spare dlm kete plak dah terguna
hubby dearie dah turun from office dah pon
relax ah
perlu ke offer nak jaga my baby
if i was that bad, rafiq dah mati dah time baru lahir haritu
hes fine, hes well behaved, hes clever and perfect ( for me lah kan )
klo nak sgt jadi babysitter, bukakla nursery...

eiiii nyampah

no point kutuk u lah
its not like u can read this pon

eiiiii tetap...

MOTIF??????????????????

strangers?who cares...

the other day pg makan lalapan..yummyyy

sambal belacan tu...meletop!!!

dah lama xmakan kt sini...everyone kt situ mmg kenal me n my hubby...first dulu drg ingat i budak bawah umur pregnant,sengal!!
but all of them yg kerja tu mmg sweet..selalu tanya2 khabar n how am i doing
masa rafiq baru habis pantang ada dtg sekali.but too many people so mkn cepat2 n xsempat nak mingle2 with them
so when we came with rafiq again....habisla si kecik kena gomol..

nampak tak kepala si kecik.



i mmg dah xcomfy dah. yelah...dgn mcm2 penyakit kan.risau jugak.
kesana sini diorang angkut rafiq..pg tgk muara sungai kt tepi kedai tulah..
tgk boats, org memancing..anak aku..kang xpasal2 org ingat anak indon plak hahaha...
again...i couldnt eat properly.mata dok cari rafiq.
si kecik..relax je..xnangis pon.siap manja2 kat dada org tu..ewaaaaaahhhh

n then when the waitress nak basuh tgn, he wanted to touch the water..
waitress tu xbagi..so apa lagi!!!!!


melalak la kan...apa dia nak xdapat...selalu dgn mama semua dpt..amik ko!!semua org kt kedai tu xleh mkn dgr dia jerit kuat2 k..
malu lah anak bojang mama ni...
papa pegang pon dia melalak lagi...n of course mama's miracle touch terus buat dia diam
hehehe...bangga plak.

but i hope rafiq mmg peramah sampai bila2
i always visioned my baby not to an introvert child
menyorok je blkg kain mama..
but not tooo friendly k syg
u have to know friends from foe
im happy enough
so, even though im a stay home mom, i want him to start going to smart learning schools when he reaches 2 yrs of age.
i want him to socialize and know how to deal with different surroundings other than at home bawah ketiak mama je 24 /7

yesterday hangout dgn hubby dearie's friend pon dia ok je kena tinggal dgn i kt dlm hotel room tu..i sibok dok buat my work dia main2 sorang2
but on the way back
he did rengek2 sikit when i was driving..
mata tu sikit2 tgk mama kt depan..
so i pon dok nyanyi2 kuat n ckp2 dgn dia so that he wont feel scared tinggal kt blkg sorang2
but he continued playing with his toys..
first time ok drive alone with him in his car seat..
serious .. cuak..
takutlah dia tiba2 nangis non stop kan

but its so sweet tgk dia enjoy playing with other people..
i know syg, ur the only baby around..mmg lah kena pampered melampau2 kan
thanks uncle jerry and aunty malina for the super generous duit raya...
nnti when u guys have ur own kids..(if im already a CEO like u malina i bagi the same amount to ur baby ya hehe)

manja2 dgn uncle jerry

uncle jerry...adidas ye? nike xleh eh? alaaaaa
btw..they're only frens ngeheheh

naaaaakkkkk

mama...aunty malina ada bwakbewwyy

mana mama ni? kenapa mama kt depan? takde kawan laaaa


so..kesimpulan...
rafiq says " strangers? xkisah...yg penting dia layan rafiq"

anak mama mmg attention seeker..tak malu eh

cerita basi...

cerita aqiqah n cukup jambul rafiq ni mmg dah basi
dah sebulan lebih
but still nak jugak post the pics
coz i just received them from my bro
who happens to be the photographer
but then..that day dia mmg malas nak tangkap pics
coz his camera jatuh, rosak habis..he had to borrow someone else's dslr so dia xde mood
hence the bad quality of pics..
but then...since rafiq needs a hair cut soon ( i know!!!)
so...letaklah gambar2 dia kena cukur...
ehehehehehehee
masa ada rambut cam budak besar
pastu botak dah mcm baby...hehhehee

the morning after
eleh...senyumla ..
masa cukur nangis

my cheeky bot kacau anak dara mommy amal

masa ni sibok agah2 tok imam..

pelik org ramai

budak encem pakai kupiah n jubah

the majlis was held after isya' prayers
so....tau2 jelah kan..
si kecik ni mmg klo time lepas maghrib to 9 pm dia mmg cranky
coz dia nak tido
so...masa cukur tu dia nangis...
cian...
but then, after mandikan dia (kesian kena mandi mlm2 tapi takut gatal2 rambut tu)
he fell asleep terus..

thanks friends and family for coming..

blogger mommas..
updates on the gathering will be notified soon!!
cik abg saya sibok finalize kerja so blum dapat date nak balik heeee

cant wait to see u guys
muuaaaahhh!!!