one month old rafiq zulkarnain

she rocks but i prefer papa more...ngeeee

but i love u too mama

eh byk ckplah nurse ni

apa ni dlm kete pon menyibuk nak snap my pic

hahaha muka tekun tgk tv

citer apa ni xfaham

tido pon senyum

happy 1st birthday sayang...
mama n papa sayang sangat dgn rafiq...
sangat

as if he knew today is a big day...
last night mcm perangai baru..
agak pelik

at first he didnt cry when hubby dearie's frens came over
siap senyum2...
diam je
padahal xsempat menyusu lagi tu
coz he just woke up..

then after they left...
he didnt cry also..
tapi mulut mcm burung la mintak susu hehehhee
pastu after nursing him
letak dia on my nursing pillow
sejam dia lepak tgk tv...
not even a single sound
last2 after lepak for an hour dia tido sendiri hahahaha
lawak2

hopefully anak mama mcm ni smpai bila2
baik sangat2
senang nak dijaga

today we woke up early sbb nak bawak rafiq for his 2nd hep b jap
bila sampai columbia,
nurse said we have an option nak bg shot today or tgu 2months bagi 6 shots in one dose sekaligus
termasuk polio, hep b n tah apa benda tah..
me pgg rafiq...hubby dearie yg dok dgr semua tuh
rafiq nangis sikit2 time turun kete nak masuk hospital..
maybe dia xbiasa lagi kot kuar2 rumah
mcm terkejut
dahlah in the car he kept on staring at me dgn muka kerut2 sambil2 BF
agaknye dia pelik
kenapa org ni muka mcm mama tapi pakai tudung
tapi mulut still nyonyot tuh
hahaha lawak la anak aku nih.

so kisahnya...we all balik rumah balik
another 2 weeks baru bawak dia balik for his 6th week checkup..
ngeee
time tu mama dah habis pantang yeay...

happyyyyyy............

1,2,3,4,5,6.....yeayyyyy

org kena pakai tepung jagung hehehe...papa kata mcm nenek dah....
thanks rinie

mmg betul kata rinie...
u want to be there to witness every single change he's made
last night after nursing rafiq i letak dlm on my lap...
main2 dgn his tiny little fingers
sambil2 tgk desperate housewives
time ni rafiq da ternganga kekenyangan
n then time commercial, i ckp dgn dia
"kenyangnya anak mama....senyap je....ngantuk ye"
then he gave me that huge smile...
siap macam gelak2 cuma suara je xkuar lagi
this time...he was looking right into my eyes

hehehehehehe

well....not that benda ni hebat sgt
but usually when he smiles or laugh.. dia buat sorang2...in his sleep or smbil2 BF tu
this time...
it was a response to what i said
oh bahagia...
very...

n then sbb nak sambung minum anmum..
i letak dia on his mattress
baringkan dia on his tummy
tiba2 dia angkat kepala n this time i counted...
1,2,3,4,5,6...
baru jatuh
yeay dah lama sikit...
come on rafiq u can do it...
yyeeeehhhaaaaaaaaaaa

i wish i cud be there also too watch every single new thing that he learned..
thanks sayang for insisting that i stay at home n be a good mom
i dont think ill regret this

btw..last night hubby dearie jumpa corn starch..
so sapukan lah kt muka rafiq..
yg boring tu..bila sapu je dia lap balik using his mittens
sabar jelah anak aku nih.

oklah.nak mandikan dia..

NNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

definitely a very disturbing image...

rafiq skrg susah nak tido mlm
asyik terkejut2 je
xtaulah ni perangai dia nak naik bulan
or ada smthing xkena
klo nursing je dia tido...
angkat sikit dia bangun
lama2 nangis
aduhai
apa nak buat ni...
smlm hubby dearie dah penat sgt dia try bagi pacifier..
nasib baik hari tu beli avent orthodontic pacifier..
saja je..mana tau emergency..
dia NAK ok!!!!
maybe dia mmg suka comfort sucking
tapi lepas 5 minit dia buang balik
buat muka disgusted plak tu dgn pacifier tu
eh?
mana satu nih?
bagi dia BF balik
ok
pastu cabut, dia nangis balik
bagi balim pacifier, nak pulak
pastu buang
ishhhhh
tah..
apa yg xkena
pastu selalu nangis time dah tido
tiba2 melalak sekuat hati
kitorang takut jugak ada benda2 xelok kacau dia
baca2 3 qul n ayat qursi baru dia lena tido
itupon lepas sejam struggling terlangkupkan dia..
he kept on waking up n marah berada dlm position tuh.
hadusssss

adakah anak saya akan attached dgn pacifier tuh?
TIDAAAAAAAAAKKKKK...
harap2 he only wants it on certain occasions
please dont make it a must use accessory sayang...
no...
bulan 7 ni nak photoshoot.
malu la anak mama ada PUTING!!!

a breath of fresh air...

curik bantal mama nak lepak tgk tv...best...

papa + mama = me

pastu tido pon sodappppp

not being able to go out
(DAMN!!!)
amie's visit last night was indeed a breather..
amie came with bedak sejuk...
specially imported from penang hahahaha
i ordered sbb risau tgk muka rafiq ruam every time lps bgn tido n panas..
kesian anak mama...
hubby dearie cari satu miri xjumpa..

anyways...
amie...jgn lupa...!
our deal.
hehhehee

oh another 2 weeks to go...
how dreadful

alkisah budak kicik nak naik bulan

rafiq...mahal ni ...tidola sini...

tak naaaakkkkkkk

sedapnyeee menggeliat kt sini mama

tido sini lagi sedapppp

3 more days baby rafiq dah nak masuk 1 month
yesterday dia start perangai baru
neta just called me yesterday morning..
warning me...
neta : "sara..baby nak naik bulan ke, tahun ke...mesti nnti meragam dlm 2,3 hari"
me : " ye ke neta...hopefully tak lah...dia ok je ni..baik je anak mama ni "

20 minutes later...

uweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk

well...oklah

mestilah dia nangis bagun tido kan...
unless if it was me yg kejutkan...
dia mcm menggeliat2 manja2 gitu..

i nursed him..
pastu dah half full...
i bathed him...

baik je...
as usual...

pastu sambung BF
his eyes dah layu2 dah nak tido..
n then i letak dia in his crib
he started crying mcm org histeria...

APAKAH????????

ingatkan...maybe ada benda tajam ke...apa ke..

NOTHING!

angkat dia balik...
pujuk2...
terus dia tido balik in my arms..

oklah...bawak masuk my room
letak on OUR BED...
ni pun kira dah melanggar pantang larang k
we dont want to teach him to sleep in our bed...
absolutely not
but since i dah sangat penat..
pagi tadi masak lagi hadusssss...
i thought xpelah..just this once...

so letaklah dia perlahan...
oh bagusnye...dia tido..
dlm hati...selamba je gedik..
2 mins later..
i baru nak landing kepala..
ingat nak tido sekejap..
dia nangis balik
again...mcm org histeria

KESIMPULANNYA...

letak atas dada...dodoi2 sikit..
terus tido
i gerak sikit je dia ckp my chest dgn kuku yg xfully manicured tuh...
AMBOI....
so..for 2 hours he slept there
with me menahan sakit buntot n belakang coz xleh gerak
tgulah smpai hubby dearie balik from work..
baru lah dia angkat
itupun again...
dia nangis
but biarlah papa dia yg layan..
mama sudah sakit semua pinggang

so then he stayed awake until 2 am in the morning
sangatlah pelik
he didnt sleep for 9 hours..
haduh
me n hubby dearie dah kepenatan yg amat2 sangat
smpai dah xde tenaga nak marah2 or tido
dah smpai gelak2 mcm org tgk mr bean dah..
maybe last2 dia penat tgk both of us buat lawak bodoh..
he feel asleep
ON OUR BED!!!!
between the both of us
selamba jek..
last2 he used our comforter yg sedap2 tuh
mama n papa terpaksa pakai selimut nipis
kesejukan dlm air cond..

rafiq : " papa, mama...im a big boy now. im one month old already. i dont want to sleep in my bed. theres teddy bears in it. TAK MACHO LAAAAAAAAA

papa n mama : whatever............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

party planning

one upon a time...
a long2 time ago...
mama bz sgt plan mama n papa's wedding
yup...mama did almost everything myself.
semualah...
papa....cuma cari duit je hehehehe
ada jugak mak lang, mak ngah tlg..
but the rest mama buat
bukan complain tau...
mama mmg suka bab2 ni..
bak kata tok ba, mama mmg mcm tu. benda2 remeh beriya2 nak buat.
hehehe
best apa...

n now..
10 months after the wedding...
mama sibuk pulak nak plan rafiq's aqiqah n cukur jambul..
sibuk je kan?
padahal tok ba kata dia nak uruskan everything
xpe , xpe...
of course mama nak jugak involved
anak mama kan?

tok pa kata kena sembelih 2 ekor kambing..
fuh...
b4 nak kuar rafiq...punyelah dah berhabis beribu2..macam2 nak kena beli
dah keluar pn habis jugak beribu2...
ni baru nak masuk sebulan dah mcm2 jugak plan untuk menghabiskan another ribu2an..
kambing / kibas seekor rm650..
xmasuk sembelih n upah masak..
of course mama nak buat door gifts jugak for the guests
mama yg gedik bab ni
n mestilah nak buat hiasan cun2
n mesti jugak nak buat baju baru for papa, mama n rafiq...
papa garu kepala dah.
hehehhee...
xpelah sekali je seumur hidup...
i mean hidup rafiq la..
hidup mama...banyak kali kot kena organize aqiqah n cukur jambul
papa said at least another3

so at least we have to put rm 3 k on our budget
anything for u sayang...
cant wait to go back home...
rindunya dgn kl...
sangat
sangat
sangat
rindu.....
rasa macam nak packing skrg jugak...

another hero !

sue just delivered her precious baby boy this morning...
so chomel ...
muka mcm dia...
n her face...sangat bahagia...
alas...the most awaited baby has arrived
baby mohd harriz nazli..
welcome..



glad both of the are safe and healthy....

sue : i owe u coz u wrote a blog about rafiq hehehe

happy kan dah selamat semuanya

muah2 baby harriz

love
rafiq zulkarnain, mama sarah & papa ashrul

makan , tido...

2 of my fave heroes topless hahhahaha
pagi bangun...kena mandi...because rafiq loves to splash kuat2..papa terpaksa xpakai baju mandikan..

one satisfied smiley face....burrrrppppp

pastu....yawwwwnnnnnnn

dats all he knows...
if perut dah kenyang ... mata sangat la layu...
he pays attention to his toys kejap je..
pastu dah boring n rengek2 nak tido..
rafiq, rafiq..

kdg2 mcm pelik...bila lah dia nak gelak2 main sume toys..
macam xsabar pun ye..
in one week adalah 2,3 times dia pay attention main2 with mama n papa

other days...
menyusu....tido...nangis...

are all babies like that?

cepatlah besar rafiq...

boleh kita main2....hehehehhee

tummy oh tummy

ehehhee...actually blom complete pon my slimming regime..
ada lagi lemak2 tak tepu kat perut ni...
dulu perut keras...xde lah muscle kan..but lean lah..
adossss sgt la xmalu
masa mula2 bersalin tu mcm sakit ati plak tgk my tummy
the excess flabs tu mcm goyang2 time jalan..
nasib baik dr aida bg bengkung khas for org yg ceaser...
boleh la support the ugly fat
klo tak dia mcm tolak ke bawak kena kt luka tu sakitla jugak
so pakai bengkung tu boleh jalan tegak n susukan rafiq comfortably..

bengkung dr aida bagi..senang nak bukak..strap on je

but still...
xsabar nak tgk my tummy balik ke asal
hubby dearie dah promise...marie france bodyline..
but first he said...habiskan semua jamu n ubat2 tu...
mahal k...
klo tak berjaya baru marie france
(promise tapi muka kesedihan hahaha)
opppssss...baik bossss

since last week dah start pakai bengkung yg ikat2 tu
dr said i can start after 2 weeks.
yes yes yes
tapi the flaw is...bengkung ni dahlah leceh nak pakai klo xde org tolong
pastu if nak g toilet...mmg gelabah..sbb susah nak bukak hehehe
tapi mmg selesa..
n rasa dia ikat perut
eventhough tak ikat ketat2 sbb takut luka dlm xbaik lagi kan..
buat syarat je

bengkung ikat2...


cam biasalah...mandi guna lulur nona roguy
sedap..but bau dia ngeeee...
hubby mmglah xsuka bau jamu2 nih
plus, hes the one yg kena scrub the floors every time i habis mandi...
guna lulur kan nnti dia habuk2
lepas tu sapu krim bengkung NR
bau dia pn yucks jugak
plus habis kain lapik dlm bengkung tu jadi kuning n bau
every day kena tkr kain baru untuk lapikkan dalam bengkung
leceh le...
last2 xguna pn this cream
pakai cream halia n limau
bau pn sedap..n panas...sedap je rasa perut

yg sapu2 mmg xbanyak..
malas pon...
org kata nak sihat biar dalaman n luaran..

for the scar tu i sapu mederma..
dr aida yg prescribe..but the scar mmg sangat bawah..xnampak pon..so sebenarnya xkisah sangat
just the tummy...
oh tummy
nak g gym blum habis confinement lagi...
tgulah lepas ni...

pagi n mlm i makan healin (gamat)
nak makan gamat fresh mmg xlalu tekak
so far rasa dia ok...
after bfast makan pil haruan leesa formula..
zatty recommend hehehehe
better than pati ikan haruan
the first few days after delivery makan pati tu...
yucks gila...
mmg nak muntah..
so baik mkn yg pil...

dr aida bagi ginseng pils.
untuk cepat baik n also banyakkan susu..
susu pulak...pagi minum anmum n malam b4 dinner minum alpha lipid
alpha lipid ni mmgla sgt bagus..
mmg banyak susu lepas minum ni
but very expensive
180 satu tin..
nasib baik shell bayar wahahaha...
lepas ni kena beli sendiri xdelah kot.

bab2 makan time confinement ni yg paling seksa sekali
sejak mak mah balik xdelah pantang sangat
makan je vege n fruits
time dia ada mmg la muka dia mucung
marahla tu
but i still makan ikan/ayam or daging bakar letak rempah2
with sup sayur...banyak carrot putih..
ada jugak terbabas makan pizza ari tu.
hehehehehhehehe...

ramai org ckp naik baik cepat if ceaser makan oranges banyak2..
so makanlah navel oranges..
sedappppp...dia xmasam sangat
mmg xsuka mkn benda masam..time pregnant loya2 pn xmakan benda masam.

huuuu...
skrg ni tummy dah slim la sikit
but still rasa mcm flabs..
but good news..dah boleh pakai balik all my kebaya's and jeans..
my skinny jeans...yeahhhhh
hubby dearie kata...nasib baik..
klo x dia nak beli mummy jeans.
halllooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!
no ok..

xpe...usaha tangga kejayaan
nasib baik xpayah diet teruk2 sangat
sbb BF mmg best
makan2 dia kuar balik
hehehhee

u can do it...sikit lagi...just a little bit more...dah boleh pakai semua baju lama..tapi ketat sikit je


rafiq menyusu banyak2 k..
kasi mama cepat slim

macam2 gaya tido

mcm org besar tido....kejap je dah bangun...sbb kaki xsmpai pon nak peluk bantal..kena paksa hahahha

tido muka berfikir panjang...mcm ni pon kejap je dah bgn...sbb tangan xsuka bedung...cepat terkejut

tido mcm ni mmg bagus. tido lama. xcepat terkejut...senyum je...hehehhee

sebab nyenyak sangat...kenala jadi mangsa pose mama n papa...ehehhee...

mmg bagus tido meniarap ni
tido nyenyak
xcepat terkejut
pastu nnti dia cepat belajar angkat2 kepala
rafiq dah boleh hold his head for 1 minute
pasti tersengguk2 balik jatuh kepala...
heeee
belom kuat lagi
tapi klo dia dh bangun dia tolak kaki dia smpai bergerak ke depan..
kuat betol
ni kaki athlete mcm kaki papa kan...
klo diri atas perut mama dia tolak 2 bagi lurus satu badan..
cepat nya mereka membesar
xsabar nak tgk..apa lagi dia boleh buat lepas ni...

missing home...

mak, kak ngah, kak yang, kak long, ameer, aisya, anis, amin, abg nafi, abg yus....rindu semuanya

me siblings...miss them...nabilah tak la sbb dia kt sini hahaha

miss everyone back home.
sangat.
n miss kl...
hihihi...esp the malls

juga miss my fwens...


jas...muah2...alamak...muka kesayanganku knapa gini?
hihihihi

Rindu semuanya..
muah2